tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-24039887591736563312024-03-13T04:05:15.193-07:00Special Needs Adult Children Caregivers (SNACCERS)Snaccershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17650039372280362832noreply@blogger.comBlogger24125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2403988759173656331.post-79237939851788889272013-11-19T16:02:00.003-08:002013-11-19T16:02:35.894-08:00<div>
This post is directed to those of you who have children with special needs who are either on government assistance right now or are under the belief that when your child is older and you are no longer on this planet that the government and/or our society will be there to take care of your child.</div>
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In a nutshell, I have been going through a government assistance nightmare for the past three weeks in regards to my son’s benefits. And the issue is not yet resolved. I am hopeful that I will get it resolved because I am relentless. Really relentless. Supposedly, Blake has a support coordinator to help with the issue. Uh huh. Well...let's just say, being polite, that she did her best, but her best wasn't near good enough.</div>
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So that is where I come in. Mrs. Relentless. Since November 1, all Blake's services have been terminated because someone forgot to send me a letter to tell me that Blake had to reapply under a new program. So they take responsibility. But they don't take action. They accept that they dropped the ball, but this admission does not make them snap to it as you can see. And the biggest problem is that no one knew what to do for like two weeks. So I was calling every agency. Every state agency. Every federal agency. No one knew what caused the issue or what to do to solve it. Then just by a luck of the draw, I sort of figured it out. But then, I guessed on how to solve it, and I was only half right. Well, in this situation, being half right is like being almost pregnant if you get my drift. Yep-you guessed it. The pieces just didn't come together. </div>
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Well, today, we seem to have 80% of the pieces in place. But still no benefits. Maybe tomorrow I can find another puzzle piece and then the next day...who knows? It's an amazing journey-one which caused me to end up in the fetal position on the couch in the middle of the afternoon watching TV. </div>
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Dealing with the government and having to handle the fact that Blake has no benefits is part of the frustration. But the bigger part is the fear that no one will be there to fight for him when I'm old or dead. There is no Mr. Relentless or Mrs. Relentless Jr. just waiting to take over. Nope-there is going to be a better solution. The only one I can think about is the planned residential community. At least there will be a team of professionals who are there to handle these types of problems if they come up. So I am back at it. Working with a great group of parents trying to develop Mariposa Village here in Florida. If you live in Florida, you can join us for a webinar meeting Wednesday evening November 20 at 7PM. Email Debbie at <a href="mailto:dlawrence@mariposavillage.com">dlawrence@mariposavillage.com</a>, and she will send you the directions. </div>
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Meanwhile, check back with our website which is under construction right now, but should be up by November 21: <a href="http://www.mariposavillage.org/">www.mariposavillage.org</a></div>
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Take care and wish me luck!! </div>
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Valerie</div>
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Snaccershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17650039372280362832noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2403988759173656331.post-57934855859578761292013-09-25T18:04:00.000-07:002013-09-25T18:04:55.675-07:00Is it really 2013? Disney Discontinues Special Needs Access
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;">Back in 1999, my husband, Garth and I started a non-profit
association called the National Autism Registry (NARY). The sole purpose of
this organization was to secure the ability for individuals with developmental
issues to access the community. Our first endeavor, which was an idea that emanated
from a personal experience that we had on a vacation, was the development of
the original NARY card. This card was basically the size of a business card. It
had the individual’s name on it and identified the person as having autism.
(Later on, we had to take off the name as we had such a huge request for the
card). It also contained a paragraph requesting that the individual and their
party be allowed to cue the line. It explained the reasons why the individual
with autism had trouble with waiting. The family was to present the card at restaurants,
establishments and other community-related places. The secondary benefit of the
card was autism awareness. Fourteen years ago, autism wasn’t the buzz word that
it is today. We were still at the point that we needed to educate the general
public. So, the cards also were an avenue for that. Many families reported
wonderful results, though we had some issues that needed to be dealt with. We
sent out over 7,000 of these free cards worldwide. (Later on the second NARY
card was developed, which was used to explain why our children had meltdowns.)<o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;">Well, then families began asking about Disney. So we
approached Disney, and after speaking with certain individuals, they told us
that they would allow individuals with autism to cue their lines as long as
they brought a doctor’s letter verifying that the individual had a disability
that prevented them from being able to wait in long lines. So, the policy
began. It was amazing. For the first time, many of us were able to bring our
children to Disney and have a <i style="mso-bidi-font-style: normal;">successful </i>experience.
Through the years, I believe that Disney became lax in verifying the disability
or the HIPAA law now prevented them from doing so. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;">It’s not surprising that people began to get wind of the VIP
treatment individuals with special needs were getting. And I guess, they are
jealous. Yes jealous!! Can you believe that the general public is jealous? Of
us? You may think it is resentment they are feeling, but I totally disagree. It
is jealousy pure and simple. There they are with their typically-developing
children, waiting for the rides, sometimes for a long time, often in scorching
heat, and our families are being escorted into the special area inside the
ride, where it is cool, and then being put on the ride quickly. Then they go to
the next ride. And there is another one of “our” families feeling very entitled
and being able to just show their pass and then get escorted into the special
area by one of the Disney personnel. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;">God forbid there should be some sort of benefit to having a child
with autism. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;">So some people who did not have issues themselves or a
special needs child forgot about Karma. They decided to rip off the system. They
tried to figure out how they, too, could be a “caregiver” for the day and
access the special needs area at Disney. Then Disney started to have public
relations problems. Not only were there tons of people who had legitimate
disabilities and needed special access, but now they had a few scammers.
Honestly, do you think there are tons of people who are “hiring” the
handicapped to take them through Disney? My guess is that there were a few bad
apples, but in general, there are really a lot of people who legitimately can’t
wait in line due to medical disabilities. So now, regular people, those without
special needs family members and do not believe in scamming, are having to wait
in line while it appears that everyone and their mother is getting in the VIP
area. They are complaining to the powers that be. I get it. I really do. I see
that Disney needs to handle this. The last thing Disney needs is to lose more
business. The economy hasn’t been great for them. They announced this week they
are discontinuing the special access pass for individuals with disabilities and
requiring them to use their Fast Pass option. They are under the impression
that this will fix the reverse discrimination that some people feel is going
on. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;">So here’s the thing. They are not fixing the problem. They
are creating a whole new one. Now they want individuals with disabilities to
use their Fast Pass option. This is the option that they offer to the general
public. It’s a great idea for people who are able to understand that you go
over to the ride, get a ticket for that ride for some time in the future, and
then do something else while you wait for that time. Then return to the ride,
possibly still wait a bit, and then eventually go on the ride. But seriously,
does that seem like a good idea for a) People in wheelchairs who already have
some issues with mobility. They have to travel over to the ride, then go
somewhere else for a time and then go back to the ride. Really? How many rides
do you think they can do in a day? Or b) Children with autism. And even some
adults. Let’s see how they do being taken over to the ride-then told they are
not going to go on the ride and have to leave the ride without going on it.
Then trying to figure something else to do while they are having a meltdown,
because they left the ride without actually going on it. Then after settling
them down, it’s finally time to take them back, which makes it look like you
are reinforcing them for poor behavior after they had a mood swing by taking
them back to the ride. Then having to wait a bit before going on the ride. (If
you have been around a child with autism, I know you understand that last thought.
If you don’t, I’m not sure you can follow it. You sort of have to be there. Sorry).
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;">From what I am reading, Autism Speaks had some hand in
developing this new procedure. Are you kidding me or what? If they did, I’d
really like to know who the person was over there that came up with this idea.
This is the best they could do. Huh? <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;">This is 2013. I am really throwing my hands up in the air. I
stopped making and sending out the original NARY Card in 2008. I thought my job
was done. I was under the impression that our society understood autism enough that
we didn’t need to constantly explain it. It seemed to me that we had made
adequate headway in accessing public and private community areas. Autism has
been in every major magazine and newspaper both in print and online. It’s
embedded into television and movies. You would be hard-pressed to find someone
these days who didn’t know someone who has autism. But this is a BIG step
backwards. And it’s about jealousy. Plain and simple. We get something they don’t.
You had better take this very seriously, because next it will be our child’s
benefits that they are going to be jealous of. Our children’s medical or disability
benefits. They are not taking the time to really look at the entire picture.
They are just looking at the one thing: special access at Disney. This is
really a big problem, and if Autism Speaks really had something to do with the
new procedure, I’m really scared. <o:p></o:p></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;">So, I re-thinking getting back into the NARY card business.
Maybe I need to make a new card. Perhaps I need to say something like: “This
individual has autism. Please do not be jealous that he or she has difficulty
waiting in line and sometimes is entitled to special treatment. I would like to
invite you to my house for the day. Perhaps, that would give you a different
perspective. Call me.”</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Calibri;">Meanwhile, I hate to be "Negative Nelly" all day. Come and visit my son and I at our website, <a href="http://thechocolatespectrum.com/">thechocolatespectrum.com.</a> Help us raise money for autism while you shop for chocolate treats. Use code First25 to receive 25% your order. Sign up to receive free special recipes (some gluten and casein free). </span></div>
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As I have previously posted, he is able to help with the
packaging. He ties the ribbons on the boxes of candy. He has always been OCD
when it comes to precision of tying the bows on his shoelaces, so I wasn’t
worried about the ribbons on the boxes. He likes the bows to be the same size. So
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This week, I introduced him to job #3: mailing packages. In
this task, he is essential. First of all, I only have two hands, and a weak
back. So, it goes without saying that I need a strong person to help carry all
those boxes into the post office. That’s a no brainer. I guess I could get a
little trolley, but who needs that when you have a strapping young fellow? So
Blake gladly carried in all the boxes for me this week. What came next was a
surprise. We brought the boxes up to the self-service kiosk for printing out
shipping labels and purchasing the stamps. And then it came to me. It’s a
touchscreen! Blake can do touchscreen. He has had a touchscreen device of one
kind or another since he was eight years old. This is old school to him. So,
one by one, I helped him to enter the information on the screen. It’s just a
matter of following the prompts: Push “mailing package.” Touch “no” since we
are not shipping anything hazardous. Enter the zipcode. After three packages, I
didn’t even have to tell him each one to push. Great!! A new task and something
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There’s a moral to this story. One that is very important
for everyone who has a child or works with a child who has special needs to
know. All those tasks that we laboriously worked on for years with Blake in
speech and occupational therapy and in school are finally starting to have more
meaning for him. People ask, what is the point of these exercises and all the
training? Well, I can tell them both from the point of being a speech
therapist, and also as a mom of an adult with autism. Functional activities are
where it is at with all of these people. Spend the time making sure your child
is involved in tasks that will help him or her in their adult life as well as
their childhood. Because I believe that every person can be purposeful. Every
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Snaccershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17650039372280362832noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2403988759173656331.post-1136353991848233022013-06-12T08:40:00.002-07:002013-07-02T10:21:36.071-07:00Our First Week-Getting Out Those Father's Day OrdersAnd so it begins...Blake's first week of being a high school graduate. The timing couldn't have been more perfect as it was the week before Father's Day. This was to be our first major holiday. I did my due diligence and low and behold, <a href="http://www.thechocolatespectrum.com/" target="_blank">The Chocolate Spectrum</a> got a nice amount of orders for our Father's Day Assortment. Most (not all) of the orders came from people who had some sort of connection to autism: parents, grandparents, etc. And they all sent me a lovely note with the order. So sweet and so rewarding for me. But I digress...on to Blake and the chocolate.<br />
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It took us 3 days of solid chocolate production to make the products. And then, on day four, which was yesterday, we did the shipping. Day one was fun for Blake. It involved making the fillings for the chocolate. I let Blake help even though it involved cooking over the stove. This was a new experience for him. I made him wear oven mitts on his hands, which was hard for him to get used to. He put them on, but was a little uncertain if he liked them. Eventually, he got used to him. My husband was a bit worried that I allowed Blake to cook on the stove top, but I stood there the whole time, and we use induction heating, which is a lot safer.<br />
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Day two and three involved the actual production of the confections. This is where Blake excels as he has to fill the truffle and chocolate molds. Day two was his favorite day. He was busy for about 3 sold hours! I noticed that Blake does his best work when there isn't any lag time. Since we are just starting out, I don't have enough equipment to always keep production going steadily, but today, it just flowed. This works out best for him. On Day three, there was some lag time, and he wasn't as focused. (My birthday is coming up, and I've asked for more chocolate molds from my family, so hopefully for the next large production run, we can keep Blake more steadily occupied.)<br />
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Day four, as I previously mentioned, was shipping day. I honestly couldn't have accomplished this task without Blake. It really requires at least two pairs of hands. This involved a new set of tasks for Blake, so I was wary, but he really enjoyed himself. I laid out all the items in advance, and we moved forward assembly line style. This kept the flow going and the wrapping and packaging went quickly. I guess all that time spent in occupational therapy learning to tie bows has paid off, as Blake helped tie all the ribbons on the packages. Blake was a real trooper. I was thrilled. I even took him with me to the shippers, so he could help carry the boxes and that he could see that we were sending away the merchandise.<br />
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So, I'm pooped, but happy. At least I know Blake has one activity to keep him busy in his life. He absolutely showed that he can do the work. I am sure he will get better as time progresses, and he will see that he is an integral part of <a href="http://www.thechocolatespectrum.com/" target="_blank">The Chocolate Spectrum</a>.<br />
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The icing on the cake is that I had an opportunity to spend a lot of time with Blake this week. The bonding experience makes up for my sore back. But onward. This was a great week!<br />
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<br />Snaccershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17650039372280362832noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2403988759173656331.post-7919536082116581682013-06-03T17:02:00.002-07:002013-07-02T10:22:13.155-07:00The Time Has Arrived. Blake Graduates High SchoolI know. I know. It's been ages since I last posted. Well, there's a reason for it. I've<br />
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been in high gear getting ready for this day. I really couldn't have imagined that the day would come, and I wouldn't have a program for Blake to go to after graduation. But the reality is that is exactly what happened. Even though I went to many meetings with many agencies in my community, no one, not one single group was willing to start a program for someone like Blake. And when I mean "like Blake," I mean someone who needs a low ratios of students to caregivers. I guess it's just too expensive and incorporates way too much time and energy to do this type of thing. So....I came up empty handed. Nothing. Nada.<br />
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Ok, so with reality setting in, I had to really look for a Plan B. I've never been one to go into denial, so a few months ago, actually back towards the end of last year, I decided to take my pastry skills to the next level, and I enrolled in a course to become a chocolatier. What's a chocolatier, you ask? No, it's not someone that sells chocolate at Disney. Haha. A chocolatier is actually someone who produces chocolate confections. Think truffles. Think bonbons. Caramels. Ganache. Fudge. All those great things. So, after graduation, I tried to figure out what I was going to do with all this new found skill set other than make all my friends and family fat. And then it came to me. Blake. Blake in the kitchen. Blake, who loves to bake. Would he like to work with chocolate? He loves to eat it, so working with it wouldn't be too far of a stretch. Now there is a lot of technical work with making chocolate confections. It's not quite like baking where you through things in a bowl and mix it up. No, it's a little more technical and a lot more detailed. So, after some trial and error, I figured out just what Blake could do. What he could excel in with chocolate production. As it turns out, Blake likes to fill chocolate and truffle molds. It is repetitious. It is visual. And he can do it. Horray!<br />
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Next step. How to turn this skill into a daily activity that will fill his day and make him feel productive. So a business was born. My son, Hunter, who always is good for a jingle or two, came up with the name: The <a href="http://www.thechocolatespectrum.com/" target="_blank">Chocolate Spectrum</a>: Creating Sweet Opportunities for Those With Autism. "Those With Autism-" You didn't think I could limit this endeavor to just Blake, did you? No No No. This has to grow. I want to create more opportunities for other adults on the spectrum. (Actually, the next job opening is for a dishwasher. Chocolate making produces lots of dirty dishes and tools. And I just can't get Blake into that task!!) And of course, we donate money from each sale to an autism charity. </div>
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In this world of autism, we are constantly reminded of what these individuals cannot do. But sometimes, there are instances where they do achieve. Blake Herskowitz is one such individual. He is a young man of 21 years with severe autism. When I use the word, severe, I mean that he cannot speak and needs 24 hour supervision. He is unable to care for himself. However, Blake has found something that he loves to do and that he excels in: Baking cookies and cupcakes. <br />
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Since Blake was three years old, he has been gluten and dairy free. In later years, he also gave up corn, soy, artificial colors and preservatives. He is not totally sugar free, but he does often bake products for himself that contain alternative sweeteners like agave. Therefore, much of his baking is gluten free. </div>
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Blake is an example of what a person can accomplish if there is a motivation and determination to succeed as well as someone who is willing to take the time to teach them the skills. Every person who exists on this planet can find personal success and a purpose. It may take some time and trial and error on the part of the people that support them to figure out exactly what that is. </div>
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Check out Blake on his website at: <a href="http://www.misterblakescakes.com/">www.misterblakescakes.com</a></div>
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Snaccershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17650039372280362832noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2403988759173656331.post-72129720137116319392012-12-11T16:23:00.001-08:002012-12-11T16:23:57.263-08:00Yummy and Healthy Chocolate Pudding-Gluten, Dairy, Soy, Corn and Egg-free<div class='posterous_autopost'>I had a tough day. My son, Blake, had to get his teeth cleaned. "So?" You say. Well, the difference is that he is a 21 year old man with severe autism. Getting his dental work isn't a matter of just going to the local dentist. What's involved is a two hour ride two counties south, a 3 hour wait, general anesthesia, a long recovery, throwing up, and then an even longer ride home with a half comatose person who doesn't understand what the heck is going on. Oh-and we had to do the whole thing with my son being on an empty stomach-really the hardest part for him. <p /> <div>But as hard as it was for me, it was even harder for him. The dentist recommended a soft diet for the rest of the day. So I wanted to make a treat for him. So I decided to try and wrestle up some quickie chocolate pudding. Watching him gobble it up after a long and stressful day, really helped us both to recover. So here is an easy recipe for you. And you don't have to wait for a difficult day to make it.</div> <p /> <div>Quickie Dairy, Gluten, Soy, Corn and Egg Free Chocolate Pudding:</div> <p /> <div>3 Tablespoons tapioca starch mixed with 2 Tablespoons of water</div> <div>1 1/2 cups Coconut Milk</div> <div>1/4 Teaspoon Vanilla Extract</div> <div>1/4 Cup Evaporated Cane Juice</div> <div>1/4 Cup Unsweetened Cocoa</div> <div>2 Tablespoons of Agave Nectar-optional</div> <p /> <div>Mix everything together in a pot. Warm up over medium heat stirring constantly (watch that it doesn't burn on the bottom). It will thicken quickly.</div> <div>Once it is thick, remove from the heat. Pour into a glass bowl. Wait a few minutes until it has cooled. Taste. If you want to add a little sweetness, add some agave until it's sweet to your desire.</div> <div>Cool in refrigerator. Enjoy!<br /> <p /> <p /> </div></div>Snaccershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17650039372280362832noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2403988759173656331.post-63475178883670030142012-12-10T06:47:00.001-08:002012-12-10T17:09:47.880-08:00Delicious Gluten Free Cookies for the Holidays-Egg, Dairy and refined sugar free, too!<div class="posterous_autopost">
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Snaccershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17650039372280362832noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2403988759173656331.post-53780017438780733372012-09-02T18:55:00.000-07:002012-09-02T18:55:57.733-07:00Back By Popular DemandMany of my readers have responded very favorably to the last blogpost that I did regarding the Best GFCF bread ever, and also requested additional great GFCF recipes. As I previously mentioned, this is not a blog that is designed to focus on food, but I guess since a lot of our kids are GFCF, I suppose a post here and there about some great recipe that I come across or put together is ok. Right? <br />
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Well I did come across a GREAT new GFCF recipe. Actually, it wasn't dairy free, but I reworked it and now it is. YEA! Blake and I made them today, and they are really yummy. Even my husband liked them. But we didn't make them for me or for him, We made them for Blake,and he loved them. What are they you ask? I'll tell you: GFCF Oreos!! And they are also free of soy and corn as well. <br />
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To be honest, a regular Oreo kind of turns my stomach. I apologize to those of you who are die hard Oreo fans out there. But just the ingredients gross me out. However, these Oreos taste really great! I would use the filling recipe even if I was making regular cookies. The reason that they are better is because the shortening that I used is Spectrum Shortening, which is much healthier than Crisco. <br />
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The cookie itself uses Teff flour, which we used in the Greatest GFCF Bread ever. So here is another good use for that flour. It also incorporates white rice flour and sweet rice flour. Sweet rice flour is also known as glutinous rice flour, and it can be a little hard to find. They have it on amazon.com, but I was a bit in a rush to make these, so I located it at an Asian supermarket. And the difference in price was startling. It was $2.99 at the supermarket vs $6.56 on Amazon. However, if the convenience of using Amazon outweighs running all over town, I will tell you, you will get a lot of cookies from the bag of flour. <br />
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Note the sugar in the cookie: I stayed with 1/2 organic cane sugar and 1/2 coconut sugar. I'm just starting to get into using coconut sugar. It's a great sweetener as it is lower on the glycemic index. Also, the confectioner's sugar I use is the organic powdered sugar which is corn-free. If you don't care about the corn, you can use regular confectioner's sugar. <br />
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I made these just a tad too big, so they look a little like whoopie pies rather than cookies. Blake wanted two, but they are too big for that. I usually give him two cookies at a time. <br />
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So let me know if you like them. By the way, the original recipe is calculated in weight not volume which is a much better way to measure. But if you don't have a kitchen scale or you just don't like measuring by weight, let me know, and I'll convert it for you. You can email me at valerie@snaccers.com<br />
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Gluten-Free Dairy-Free Oreos<br />
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80 grams sweet rice flour<br />
60 grams white rice flour<br />
35 grams teff flour<br />
2 grams (1/2 teaspoon) xanthan gum<br />
1/2 cup unsweetened cocoa powder (we used Dagoba organic)<br />
1 teaspoon baking soda<br />
1 teaspoon baking powder<br />
1/4 teaspoon salt<br />
1 cup sugar (we used 1/2 cup organic cane sugar and 1/2 cup coconut palm sugar)<br />
140 grams Spectrum shortening<br />
1 large egg<br />
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58 grams Spectrum shortening<br />
4 tablespoons Spectrum shortening<br />
2 cups sifted confectioners’ sugar<br />
2 teaspoons vanilla extract<br />
Preparing to bake. Preheat the oven to 375°. Line a baking sheet with parchment paper or a Silpat.<br />
Making the cookie dough: Put the sweet rice flour, white rice flour, and teff flour in a mixing bowl. Add the xanthan gum, cocoa powder, baking soda, baking powder, salt, and sugar. Mix together with a wisk or fork until blended. Add the shortening and egg and mix well using a handheld or stand mixer. Once it is all blended, it may still look dry, however, it will stick together when forming the cookies<br />
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Baking the cookies: Scoop a rounded teaspoon of batter and form a ball. Gently, flatten the dough in the palm of your hand. After you have flattened, smooth the edges of the cookie dough disk to make it evenly rounded. Place the dough disks onto the prepared baking sheet, about 2 inches apart. (These will not spread, but you do not want them to touch each other.)<br />
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Assembling the cookies: Spread the blob of creamy filling toward the edges but not entirely there. Gently, press the second cookie down onto the filling and watch the filling reach the edges.<br />
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smoke pot and, my some miracle, I'm not on any antidepressants either. But it finally occurred to me that I do indeed have a drug of choice. It may not be the most conventional type of drug, but it does definitely induce a chemically-based high. <br />
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If you're my husband and you're reading this right now, and you are probably <br />
guessing that it is chocolate chip cookies. I have to be honest, good cookies of any type runs a very close second. Well maybe not second-maybe fourth after my family. <br />
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I got in the car this morning to take my son to school. Nothing uniquely <br />
different about this ride to school versus any other day. Blake and I buckled <br />
up. I turned on the Navigation, a requirement of you know who. He can't possibly ride in the car without the map of the GPS being front and center. Flipped on the CD player <br />
to the same CDs, same tracks as always (The Eagles: Long Road Out of Eden, or sometimes Santana or Bob Marley). And now comes my drug fix: I look in the rear view mirror, and I see Blake laughing and smiling and rocking out to the tunes on the CD player. <br />
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The truth is that I have a really strong addiction and it's not to any <br />
chemical that I ingest. My drug of choice is a smile from Blake. And I don't <br />
delude myself to thinking that it's not a chemically reaction. I am sure that <br />
endorphins are running wildly through my body at the time creating a feeling of <br />
euphoria that I get when my son is happy, smiling and laughing<br />
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So yes I'm hooked on him. I'm hooked on his joy. I'm hooked on his elation at <br />
the little things of life like turning on the radio in the car, and when he <br />
starts rocking out in the backseat I look in my rearview mirror and catch a <br />
glimpse of his life when he's at his best. <br />
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Of course there's a flipside to this story. As Blake is bipolar, there's a lot <br />
of days or minutes where his demeanor doesn't exude happiness. And then the <br />
chemicals in my body exerts some other chemical, probably adrenaline, which <br />
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Coincidentally, I had lunch with a long time acquaintance of mine. She was telling me that her son is moving out of her house into a group home in a couple of days. She is absolutely panic-stricken. I totally understand. Aside from the concern she has about how her son will manage in a brand new environment, she is overwhelmed about how she is going to handle it. Her son has been her life for so many years. She kisses him goodnight every evening. She has help with him, but manages every aspect of his existence. She has had the same caregivers for years and years. They are her friends as well as her support. She is concerned about what her life will be after he moves out. We both recognize there will be a period of mourning the old life, before embracing the new one can happen.<br />
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We talked for several hours. She knows it will be hard. But, she also knows that it has to happen. One day, we will all be needing to allow our son or daughter with autism or other special needs, to move out of our home and into a place that will be their home for when we are no longer able to take care of them. It's hard to fathom for most of us. But it is a part of the process. <br />
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But for the next few years, at least. I hope to still be able to get my "fix."Snaccershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17650039372280362832noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2403988759173656331.post-35555663617254843212012-08-21T19:46:00.001-07:002012-08-21T19:47:34.539-07:00Sometimes I feel like I'm getting Alzheimer'sI know that I am not getting Alzheimer's. I have googled the signs and symptoms enough times to realize that. Still, there are some days that I just can't remember why I walked into a room or if I locked the door or who I was just about to call. I have read over and over again that these occurrences are just part of the normal aging process that people in middle age start to get. But still it's disconcerting. Especially because caregiving for a special needs adult requires so much memory: doctor appointments, medicine schedules, school or daycare requirements, grooming details, automatic vitamin deliveries, medication refill reminders. Well the list goes on and on. <br />
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I am really extremely organized. I have done everything I can to create schedules, appointment reminders in my phone, Post-Its galore. I have pill organizers, visual schedules, white boards for the other caregivers to alert me to items they are running out of, and other tangible tools to keep it all straight. And for the most part, these strategies work well. <br />
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But what has me boggled is how much it is necessary to rely on these tools. As time progresses, the need will increase, I realize that. But what will happen when the day comes when I don't remember to input all of these appointments into my phone or setup the daily medication dosages. Who will do it? <br />
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A couple of times, when Blake was younger, I brought him to a respite home for overnight visits when I had to travel for work. Both times, they screwed up his medication. And these were nurses. Sorry to sound paranoid, but this really happened. I think I still have Post Traumatic Stress from these occurrences. <br />
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I just read something on a listserv that I haven't been able to stop thinking about. On the subject of what will happen to our children when we are gone, a parent wrote in that he basically doesn't worry about it, because he will be dead. I thought that maybe he was just some random person with a unique way of looking at things. But then a couple of parents wrote in that they agreed with him. I was so shocked that I started thinking about it. Is it possible that there are many people who feel this way, but just don't express it? Perhaps, they don't worry about what won't affect them directly? Do you think this is the case?<br />
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I know you can accuse me of over-thinking on this subject: Who will take care of our kids when we are gone. But in my defense, that is my job as a blogger and a writer. Right? But are there so others who just say whatever?Snaccershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17650039372280362832noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2403988759173656331.post-63616217886411499452012-08-09T13:35:00.002-07:002012-08-09T13:42:04.495-07:00We've Come A Long Way Baby-Or NotHaving an autism ribbon tattooed on my arm has made me a walking billboard for autism awareness. Especially because it is summer, and I am wearing a lot of sleeveless shirts (good excuse to show off my new tat). Lots of people come up to me and say, “Nice tattoo.” Then I ask them if they know what it stands for. Guess what? I would say that it’s running about 70/30. Meaning that approximately 70% of the people that comment on my tattoo do not know what it means. Some people have guessed that its purpose is to raise gay pride awareness. Oops. <br />
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More than being able to identify the meaning of the ribbon, I'm still explaining what autism is. You would think with autism affecting one out of 54 guys and one out of 88 individuals in general, pretty much everybody would know what autism is by this time. Nope. I guess I'm going to have to go back to the time when I used to send families little cards that would talk about autism issues so that they could hand them out to people when they would look at our kids like they needed a good spanking. <br />
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I suppose my assumption that everyone knows about autism is due to the fact that autism consumes my life. I know what the ribbon stands for-how come you don’t know? Well, I decided to give my little arrogant attitude a test: I went online and I researched awareness ribbons. Then I checked to see which ones that I could identify. See if your score compares with mine.<br />
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Purple: Domestic Violence, Alzheimers and Lupus Awareness. Did I know this? Nope<br />
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Green: Cerebral Palsy, Celiac and Kidney Cancer Awareness. Again, my score was 0.<br />
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Red: Aids and Heart Disease Awareness. Shame on me. Didn't know this one either.<br />
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Pink: We all know this one, right. What a great example of a wonderful public awareness campaign. Statistics of the incidence of breast cancer are around 12% of women will get breast cancer. That equates to approximately 1 in 8 women. <br />
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Turquoise: Ovarian Cancer-If you read my book, you will know why I am kicking myself about not knowing this one.<br />
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And my favorite: Grey: Zombie Awareness. How could have not recognized this one? Oh, and also, Diabetes.<br />
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So this little exercise told me a lot-about myself as well as the society I live in. We ALL need to open our eyes to others. We can't live in our own little universe. Yes, I have a child with autism, but there are many other people out there with lots of other issues as well. <br />
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And most importantly, we need to continue to increase public awareness of autism. Our job is not done. Not that I am advocating that you go to extreme measures and embellish your body with an autism ribbon, however, I will take advantage of these hot summer days to continue to flaunt mine in hopes of spurning some conversation. <br />Snaccershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17650039372280362832noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2403988759173656331.post-19697308299241243042012-08-06T19:14:00.001-07:002012-08-06T19:14:09.852-07:00Just in caseI am sure that as parents of a special needs child, you have asked yourself the what if questions many times. What if I am in a car accident? What if I get sick and can't take care of my son (daughter)? What if I'm in a plane crash? <br />
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Should I keep going? No, I don't think I need to. I am sure you get my drift. If you are like me, and I am sure some of you are, you quickly dismiss the "what if" questions and go about your day, pushing those negative thoughts deep into the recesses of your brain where no one except the dream fairies can find it. <br />
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And oh those dream fairies. They sure like to get into your inner most thoughts, don't they? They like to find all your deeply hidden anxieties and make a whole lotta problems for you while you sleep. Ever have the dream where you can't find your child? You look and look, but can't find him (her)? I hate that one. It appears once every month or so. As if we don't have enough anxieties while we are awake?<br />
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The truth is, we really can get rid of those nasty dreams as well as the ogre disguised as a fairy. All we have to do is face our fears in real life. We have to look at reality and recognize that our "what if" questions are not that far fetched. They are actually possible if not inevitable. <br />
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If you have started to fill out the LifeCare book templates, then you are at the beginning of planning for the day when someone else will take over the responsibility of parenting your special needs child. Good for you. Print those pages out and put it into a binder with dividers, and you have the beginning stages of the manual called How To Take Care of My Child. It's a great first step. <br />
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I have one more idea for you. This might be fun. In addition to the templates, you should write a narrative about your child. It should be a story all about your child starting with what time he or she wakes up and exactly what happens after that. Blow by blow all the way until they fall asleep. You should pretend that you are explaining to someone what your child does every single day. In the story, you will want to include all the special things that you do for your child, all their reactions, every quirk or response to stimuli that you can think of. <br />
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Before you write the story, write an outline. List each area that you want to talk about-almost like you are writing a term paper. This way, you won't leave out any of the important details. <br />
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You can include photos in your story, too. A picture is worth a thousand words as they say. Maybe you are writing about a particular toy that your child must have with them at all times. You could put a photo of the picture so that if someone were to need to get that toy for your child, they could easily locate it. You could also embed videos. What a great way to demonstrate how you brush your child's teeth or in my case, how I prompt Blake when we are in the kitchen making our weekly quiche. Though the videos won't be in the print version of the book, you can reference them to the file on your computer. <br />
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There are many ways to approach this task. You can make it a fun activity or a sad one. You can look forward to writing it all down or you can cry your entire way through it. If you absolutely hate to write, there are good programs or apps so that you can dictate the whole thing. Dragon Dictation is one of the more common programs around designed to accomplish this. I don't do well with dictation. I am much more descriptive when I type, but some people are the opposite, and the dictation programs are effective for them.<br />
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Lastly, when you write, pretend that you are telling the story of your child to someone who is sitting next to you. Imagine you are being interviewed by a talk show host rather than looking at this as a document that may be used in the event something happens to you. This is a living document. It is dynamic in nature meaning that it will change with time. Today your child obsesses on his iPad. Next year, it could be something else. Our children change with time just as we do. We know them. We understand them. It is our job to try and teach others to know them as well. Just in case.Snaccershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17650039372280362832noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2403988759173656331.post-11340909183011587832012-08-01T18:22:00.000-07:002012-08-01T18:31:24.293-07:00Just the Greatest GFCF Bread EverI realize that this is a little off topic for this blog. However, I just had to share. So here's the back story:<br />
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For the past 18 years, I have been involved in preparing gluten and dairy-free meals for my son, Blake. For many of those years, Blake has been soy, corn, artificial flavorings/colors free as well. Oh and nitrate-free, too. Probably some other "free" thing as well that I can't think of right now. <br />
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To add to this history, I have become enamored with baking for the past 3 years or so. Blake enjoys it as well. In fact, it's the first thing other than laundry and housekeeping that I can honestly tell you that he has excelled at and loves. Though I don't bake GFCF only, I have been doing a great deal of experimenting. And recently, we (meaning Blake and I), have come up with the absolute best, beyond a shadow of a doubt, GFCF bread that you will find anywhere. <br />
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I really put this bread to the challenge against any other GFCF bread, homemade or store bought. I know that sounds quite arrogant, and I don't like to brag, but it is really great. Very rarely can you get a baked product that non-GFCF people like. THIS IS THE ONE. And, on top of it, it's incredibly healthy. I have made it for several GFCF people that I bake for, and they are in disbelief that it is GFCF. It's also corn and soy free as well. <br />
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The original recipe came from Kim at her blog called Gluten Free Real Food. She supplied a basic recipe but had so many options that could be used that you really end up with totally different tastes in the breads depending on which milks, flours and fats you select. I am going to supply you with the recipe the way I finally perfected it, but if you want to see the original recipe with all the variations, here is the link:<br />
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So without further ado, I bring you the recipe. Even if you haven't ever baked bread, it's not hard. It is ingredient-heavy, meaning there are a lot of ingredients in it, but not difficult.<br />
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Wet Ingredients:<br />
3 large eggs<br />
1 teaspoon apple cider vinegar<br />
1/4 cup of melted coconut oil<br />
1 1/3 cup rice milk warmed to body temperature<br />
1 tablespoon plus 1 teaspoon honey<br />
3 tablespoons brown sugar<br />
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Flours:<br />
1/2 cup of millet flour <br />
1/2 cup of buckwheat flour<br />
1 cup of teff flour<br />
1/2 cup of tapioca starch<br />
1/2 cup of potato starch<br />
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The remaining ingredients:<br />
3 tablespoons xanthan gum<br />
1 1/2 teaspoons salt<br />
2 1/4 teaspoons dry active yeast (the equivalent of one package)<br />
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Mix the wet ingredients together. Add the flours and the remaining ingredients. Stir together until the mixture is all blended. <br />
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Using a dough hook on your stand or hand-held mixer, knead for 2 minutes. <br />
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Note: If you are a seasoned bread baker, be aware that this mixture is very loose and does not come together into one ball like traditional bread dough. It's a cross between a bread mixture and a cake mixture. <br />
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Spray 2 small or one large loaf pan with cooking spray. Pour mixture into pans. Cover with a piece of plastic wrap, and put it into your oven that has been warmed just a teeny tiny bit (I set the oven to 170 degrees and then turn it off. Then I open the door to let most of the hot air out before I put the pans in. It should be just a warm oven that has been turned off and most of the hot air has escaped).<br />
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Let the bread mixture rise in the pans for approximately 40-60 minutes. The mixture should now come up to the top of the pans: <br />
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Take the pans out of the oven. Preheat the oven to 350 degrees. Bake for 30 minutes or until the loaves are cooked. <br />
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Take them out of the pans immediately. Let them sit for 10-15 minutes and then slice. YUM!!<br />
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<br />Snaccershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17650039372280362832noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2403988759173656331.post-32699877988734676102012-07-30T07:04:00.000-07:002012-07-30T07:18:09.456-07:00Necessary codependencyI remember back in the nineties a certain buzz word: codependent or codependency. Do you remember it? Strictly speaking, it refers to the relationship that a person has with another individual who displays controlling or dysfunctional behavior. An example would be an alcoholic who is verbally abusive to his wife, or a overly critical parent who berates their adult child. The one individual is totally preoccupied with the needs of the dysfunctional individual at the expense of their own. Codependency can occur in any type of relationship. Again, in the textbook sense, the controller is characterized as a narcissist and the other as displaying low self esteem. This relationship goes beyond the typical parent- child caregiver relationship. Surely, we put our children's needs ahead of our own when they are very young. But unless we totally disregard our own needs, this relationship is not codependent. Codependency refers to the complete preoccupation one individual has for the other.<br />
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I was in a codependent relationship once. I never knew if this person was going to be nice to me that day or not. I was told that I was a below standard partner, and that is why I was receiving negative feedback from him. I read book after book on how I could be a better mate. I was told to go to counseling to improve my behavior. I analyzed all my flaws and tried as hard as I could to improve. However, these "improvements" didn't seem to change the relationship. In fact, things deteriorated, and it became physical. I then stopped analyzing my behavior. I started looking at the relationship. I saw the codependency pattern. Eventually, I became a really bad partner-I left the relationship.<br />
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But now I am in another codependent relationship. This one is between my son with autism, Blake, and myself. It's a necessary codependent relationship. My entire universe revolves around him. Being that he is prone to meltdowns, aggressive behavior, and self-injuries, I must be on constant alert. I watch his every move every moment I am with him. I analyze his facial expressions for signs of distress. He's a jumper. He jumps if he is really happy or if he is really upset. Therefore, when he starts jumping, which is fairly frequently, I have to figure out if it is a happy jump or a distressed jump. He verbally stims a great deal. Again, I must decide if I think his noises are indicative of a positive state of existence or the opposite. It can go either way. <br />
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Like a wife who is married to a wife beater or someone who has a hair trigger, I often tiptoe around my son. I do whatever I can to keep things calm. Blake likes his life predictable, so I utilize several techniques with him to keep him "in the know." he has a visual board which displays photos of all of his daily activities. His life is fairly routine. I don't put much pressure on him, though he does complete a lot of his daily chores on his own terms. If something is going to change, I alert him and try to prepare him in advance. Sometimes this is a successful strategy-sometimes not so much.<br />
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Everything is wonderful in my universe if everything is wonderful in Blake's. And visa versa. If this isn't codependency, I don't know what is.<br />
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Sometimes, I try to reverse the dynamics. I try and exude lots of happiness when I am around Blake. My hope is that my joy will "rub off" on him and make him happy. Sometimes it works. I get Blake to laugh and smile by doing it first. I realize it's still codependency. I know it's similar to a person who tries to control the situation in a volatile relationship by trying to be ultra sweet to the other person. But whenever Blake laughs and smiles, my heart is full. It's like a drug for me. Luckily, he's happy most of the time, and the bad moods are the exception rather than the rule. So I get my "fix" frequently. Which means my life is wonderful most of the time.<br />
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But when he is agitated, things go down the tubes fairly quickly. If I am lucky, he can get himself out of it without doing harm to himself or others by jumping up and down or pacing around his padded room for about fifteen minutes. For that period of time, my stomach is in a knot. When it's over, I start breathing again. Sometimes, the jumping and pacing don't work, and we are into a full blown meltdown with the need for strong male caregivers assisting to keep everyone safe. When that episode is over, I need my own recovery period.<br />
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Codependency. It's necessary sometimes.Snaccershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17650039372280362832noreply@blogger.com12tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2403988759173656331.post-73415474162773758662012-07-23T21:45:00.003-07:002012-07-23T21:45:49.398-07:00It Starts By Facing Your FearsI know first hand the terrifying feeling of asking yourself what if? What if something happened to me? What if I got ill? What if I get in a car accident and I'm debilitated? What would happen to my child? Who would care for him or her?
You know those questions that haunt you at 3:00 in the morning. The ones that you don't allow others to ask you. The questions that if someone actually gets the nerve to ask that you answer by saying something like, "I just won't get ill ever." Or even more illogical: "Well, I'm never growing old?". Ok, maybe you won't ever grow old, but that means you'll be dead, which isn't so great either in terms of providing for your child.
Well, that's what a lot of us go through. Actually, that's at least a step in the right direction. At least we are admitting that our child needs ongoing life care for their entire life. There are still a lot of folks out there with involved adolescent or young adult children who are still hopeful that somehow some way their child will be totally independent-like in terms of getting married and going to college and being on their own. Seriously. I know these people. Sometimes, most of the time actually, I'm polite and reserved. But there is the inner me thats dying to be the Dr.Laura of the autism world and tell them to snap out it and wake up from the daydream they are having and face the music. I'm kind of starting to do it with posts like this, aren't I?
Maybe what we can all start doing right away is just one little thing to be on the safe side. Face your fear. Accept the fact that there is a good likelihood that your special needs child will need some type of support service for a long time-possibly the rest of their life. And then be proactive. How can you do that, you ask? I recommend that you start by writing down everything that's involved in your child's life. Everything that you can think of and organize it in a way that someone else could follow it if they needed to. I've done that, and I organized it into sections of a book I call Blake's Lifecare book. If you want the blank sheets that you can use to put in your own child's information, I'll send them to you. Just email me your email address or leave it on the blog.
Let's get started.Snaccershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17650039372280362832noreply@blogger.com23tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2403988759173656331.post-71553398870589180822012-07-19T18:22:00.001-07:002012-07-19T18:22:24.639-07:00Let's Talk About the FutureIf you have a child on the spectrum, you will have to a one point in your life, think about the future. Sure, if your child is young, you really don't know what the future has in store. I get it. But still, wouldn't it be nice to know that in case something happened to you, there would be a really good option for your child to live out his or her life?<br />
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The reason that most of us are so scared to think about the future is that, as a society, there hasn't been a large of group of people who have grown up to be adults with special needs. Yes, there are many people who have various types of developmental disabilities that are adults, but the large numbers won't happen until sometime between 2015 and 2020 when the children of the autism epidemic grow up. So, we don't know what to do about this. We are not prepared. It's so hard to think about something that doesn't exist.<br />
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Some of us middle-aged parents are also part of the special needs sandwich generation. That is, we have older parents who need some sort of caregiving, and we also have our child or children who need caregiving. In regards to our parents, we kind of have an idea what to do. Maybe we are not certain, but at least we know what the options are. We know that eventually it is possible that one or both of our parents will get ill or infirm and require some sort of care. Our society is somewhat set up for this. There are facilities that provide assisted living arrangements, while other provide skilled nursing. There are also agencies that provide in-home supports in the case that our parents stay in their home. These are all hard choices-not easy ones. They require lots of preparation and resources. But at least we are not shocked when the day comes that these services are necessary. And most of us are willing to talk about it at least among ourselves. Maybe not with our parents-that's a whole other story.<br />
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But when it comes to our kids, we don't have many options yet. Depending on where you live, there may be a group home option or a residential facility. At least that is what is available today. Who knows what will be available in the future. One of the biggest problems that I see with the group home or residential option is that they rely on government funding. I, for one, am not comfortable with a facility for my child that relies on government funding. I mean, how can I be sure that there will be these funds in the future. If the government cuts that have been going on recently are any indication of what may happen in the future, I am just not comfortable with relying solely on that option. Group homes and/or residential facilities receive their funding solely from the government. They do not fundraise, They do not have trusts that offer some cushion. Nothing. Just government funding. That is not good enough for me.<br />
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I have been told that my thoughts about creating communities for individuals with developmental disabilities is pie in the sky. Really? Is it that ridiculous to believe that one day, there could be a self-contained community that my son could live out his life in a safe, secure, well-funded environment?<br />
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My book (a fiction story on this subject) is now available on amazon.com as well as Smashwords. Soon it will be on all the other retail sites like Barnes and Noble. But you can read it now on any device if you buy it (for $2.99) on Smashwords. Actually, you can read an excerpt for free on Smashwords. Please read the book if you have a child with developmental disabilities. We have to start talking about this subject if we are to make any strides.<br />
<a href="https://www.smashwords.com/books/view/181423">https://www.smashwords.com/books/view/181423</a>
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<br />Snaccershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17650039372280362832noreply@blogger.com13tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2403988759173656331.post-21419325869211610652012-07-12T13:11:00.000-07:002012-07-12T13:11:03.969-07:00My new book is out!I'm so happy to report that after 2 years in the making, my new fiction autism-themed book is out. Its called Always Leave Them Laughing. Here is a great way to read a sample for free:
http://www.smashwords.com/books/view/181423
Here is a synopsis:
Maddie Candell, a middle-aged, single woman, is the mother to JC, a young man who has developmental disabilities. He is severely involved and displays aggressive behaviors along with a very limited ability to take care of himself. He lives at home with Maddie, and her life follows a very strict set of routines that totally revolve around JC. Maddie insists on being completely self-sufficient and refuses to ask anyone for assistance.
But one day, Maddie encounters a very serious personal situation. This occurrence causes her to evaluate her life choices. She begins to question whether her decision to be independent of others was the right thing to do. In addition, she realizes that she has important questions that she must answer. As she journeys down this path of self-discovery, a deeper life purpose emerges. She sees that she has no choice but to follow this road. It's not an easy one, and there are naysayers along the way, but she realizes there is no other option for her to take.
As you can see, it's really targeted at our population: adult children on the spectrum. I hope you read it. I want to raise awareness about adults and the issues that face them. Let me know what you thinkSnaccershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17650039372280362832noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2403988759173656331.post-61878214422816517132012-06-29T06:01:00.000-07:002012-06-29T06:01:13.249-07:00Just a little bit of differenceYesterday was my birthday. Everyone asked me if I was going to do something special. or if I wanted to do something special. I had some time to think about it. What does special mean? I guess, in my situation, special would mean something different. Different than my usual day, which looks something like what the dad and brother go through in the movie, 50 First Dates. Have you seen that movie? That's the movie with Drew Barrymore and Adam Sandler, where Drew's character had been in a car accident and she sustained a brain injury which impaired her short term memory. So everyday, she wakes up and thinks it's the day before her accident. She has no memory after that date. Which means she always thinks it's the same day every day. So every evening, after her character, Lucy,goes to bed, the dad and brother prepare the house so that Lucy will see everything is exactly the same. Anyway, you get my drift, I hope. Back to me. So that is what my life basically looks like. It's not exactly the same <i>every</i> day, but the week does follow a rather specific routine. And with Blake, there are definitely some routines that we follow very specifically every day. Blake has a visual board that illustrates, in photos, what his day will be like. And he diligently checks it every night before he goes to bed. He knows that most weekdays, he goes to school. I take him by car (there's a photo of my car), and he comes home by bus. He knows if it's Tuesday, it must be bowling in the afternoon. Thursday is basketball, and swimming on Saturday mornings. He knows his morning routine as well as his evening regime. He jumps for joy when I take out all the products and items that we use before bedtime, and even is happy when he takes his medicines, which are given on a precise schedule. As long as we are following exactly what he is expecting, he is very happy. Because of Blake's strict routines, I also have developed a rather specific schedule of my own to adapt to his life. I don't have a visual schedule, but I do have an iPhone that contains all my appointments. And I have my own set of "If it's Tuesday, it must be..." Oh my goodness. I've become Blake. Stuck in a pattern of routines that also bring a great deal of comfort to my life. I like it. It also brings a smile to my face. Is this bad? I don't know and I don't really care. I'm just appreciative that my husband understands. Actually, he's starting to develop a whole set of routines himself, probably to adapt to mine? So for my birthday, what did I want to do that was special? Did I want to rock the boat and get someone to watch Blake overnight, which would mean that I had to get someone else to take on some of the tasks that I normally do? No-too much energy. I do that on occasion when I travel for work. No-I think a nice dinner out with the other kids would really fit the bill-just different enough to call it special. We are doing it tonight since last night was a work night for the kids (they are all grown). I'm really looking forward to it. One cool thing about having a routine life, is that just a little bit of difference makes it super special. I'm really lucky!Snaccershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17650039372280362832noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2403988759173656331.post-48009271548172188122012-06-19T06:02:00.000-07:002012-06-19T06:02:26.701-07:00A little radical?Last Friday, I did something quite radical. I got a tatoo. Not a little butterfly on my ankle or a petite flower on my back easily hidden from the public. No, I got a rather large autism ribbon on my arm. Big and bold in all it's blue, red and yellow technicolor glory. It wasn't an impulsive decision. I had been thinking about it for almost a year. I'd would have probably gotten it sooner, only I was scared of the pain. I had even researched numbing agents. But when it came down to getting it, I decided that I wanted to feel it. Every scratch, pinch and poke. And it hurt. Not unbearingly, more annoyingly than anything. Especially, at the end when my arm was getting sore. It's actually more of annoyance now as it goes through the healing process. And it's much larger than I had originally imagined because it had to be to get all that intricate puzzle-piece detail into it as explained to me by the tattoo artist. So the $64,000 question that everyone, even my husband, keeps asking me, is why did I need to get this? Why would a 55 year old not very "tattooish" type person feel compelled to get this? I do confess I have another small tattoo gotten many years ago. But in general, I don't think anyone would peg me for the type. And here is the best answer I can give, because, to be honest, I don't think I really understand it completely myself: Autism has been an overriding theme in my life. Not only have I been living it 24-7 since my son was diagnosed in 1993, but it is my chosen profession which I selected many years before that. And I can't quite get my head around the fact that even though, it is widely known that 1 out of 88 children are being diagnosed with it in the year 2012, it's not the most important topic discussed on every TV, newspaper, blog, or any other media outlet. What the heck? If there was an epidemic of something else that appeared to be growing and growing year after year which had the affect of a life long possibly debilitating result which would require a society to basically support an entire entity of 1 out of 88 individuals wouldn't this be a huge thing? Remember the bird flu or swine flu thing? H1N1? I just can't understand it. Do the other 87 families really think their lives won't be affected at all? Oh really? Don't they pay taxes? And are we any closer to understanding what causes it? It seems that I read about another theory every week. But I'm not sure that in my lifetime we will know what is going on and how to stop it. And that makes me very sad. So that's one reason I got my tat. I'm sure there are multiple other reasons which I will be blogging about soon I'm sure.Snaccershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17650039372280362832noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2403988759173656331.post-11179922682144575082012-06-07T09:53:00.002-07:002012-06-07T09:53:49.985-07:00Sorry it's been awhile since I posted. Been busy. I'm sure you know the feeling. :) <br />
But I am going to try to make a committment to post each week. So please come back next week!<br />
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Meanwhile, I want to post about a conversation that I had yesterday with an acquaintance. She is a very nice person, and I mean her no disrespect. She is not a parent of a special needs child, just a friend. But she said something that made me cringe a bit. She's about my age-mid 50's. We were talking about the future. I mentioned that I was getting a bit old to be doing what I've been doing (I was referencing the micromanaging of my son, Blake). I told her that I couldn't imagine doing it at this pace in 10 or 15 years down the road, and that eventually I needed to figure out another option. I guess because she is around my age she was taken back at the reference of being "too old?" I don't know. But she immediately jumped in and said, "you're not old!" Of course, I then referenced my comments back to the management of Blake and how a person of my age wouldn't normally be taking care of an adult child with special needs and all that goes along with that. "Okay, okay," she commented in relief realizing that my life bore no resemlance to hers, I suspect. I soothed her even more by saying that I still feel full of vim and vigor (haha), but not necessarily all the time. I mentioned that being in the mid-50's is not old to work or go on cruises (yes, I was a bit passive aggressive, I admit), but a tad bit over the hill for wiping behinds a (big hairy one at that!), dealing with school issues, and lots of doctor appointments. And having to be home at 10PM on a Saturday night to relieve the caregiver. Yes, a bit old for that. She got my drift!<br />
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This isn't the first time I have received comments that are in the same vein. When I clarify, there is always the risk that I can make the listener uncomfortable, so I am careful when elaborating to be sure that the they understand that I take it all in stride. It's my life. And to be honest, I'm pretty darn happy most days. It's not easy, but I'm really ok with it. I know that I maybe can't plan like other people my age. My husband and I don't travel like our friends. And I know I have a lot on my plate. But I think I have a very deep appreciation for days that are uneventful, and I noticed recently that I don't ever complain about being bored.Snaccershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17650039372280362832noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2403988759173656331.post-47187899669574707102012-04-19T18:05:00.001-07:002012-04-19T18:05:04.365-07:00As I was making my umpteenth call the other day, all things regarding Blake, I was suddenly overcome by the realization of what it takes to manage his life. We have a least 2-3 doctor appointments a month. He takes several medications, needs letters to certify his disability for this agency and that agency, managing caregiver schedules and payments, well the list goes on. I'm sure you can relate. I'm an extremely organized person. I have spreadsheets, charts and files of all sorts. And I truly don't mind doing this job. I do it with love and would be happy to do it for another 50 years. But I'm 55. Whose going to do this job when I can't remember things so well anymore? I do have a system for giving him all his medications each day. They have interaction issues, so everything is timed just so, so hopefully I'll be able to continue this routine for awhile. But who will do it when the inevitable will come? So you think about it?Snaccershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17650039372280362832noreply@blogger.com8tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2403988759173656331.post-41783619089814224842012-04-17T12:58:00.001-07:002012-04-17T12:58:33.839-07:00So I thank all 64 of you who visited our blog on the first day. It's apparent that there are a lot of us in the same or similar boat. Though my living situation is working for us presently, I really don't know what the future will bring on that front. My bigger concern for the immediate future is what I'm going to do with Blake next year when he graduates from high school. Unfortunately, there isn't any options for him in my community. I find that incredibly hard to believe, but it's true. Nothing. Zero. Zip. Nada. I guess I've made my point. So as usual, I guess it's going to be up to me to figure something out to do. So, I've been thinking.... Something my husband says is a dangerous thing. LOL. But I really don't have a choice. HE CAN'T STAY HOME ALL DAY. So what should we do? Well, he likes to cook and bake. His favorite item to cook is quiche. It's fairly easy, and with assistance of course, he does quite well. He also likes to bake cupcakes, cookies and cakes. He isn't independent enough to work for anyone other than me. Do I have to open a shop? Do I have to start a business just to give my son a purpose in life? These are some of the thoughts that I've been having lately. What are your thoughts? What are your adult children doing to keep themselves busy all day? Have any of you started anything like a day program or cottage industry? Please comment!Snaccershttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17650039372280362832noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2403988759173656331.post-14760633418924379512012-04-16T08:52:00.001-07:002012-04-16T08:52:54.560-07:00Welcome to the first post of SNACCERS. SNACCERS as you can see stands for Special Needs Adult Children Caregivers. In other words, if you are the parent of an adult child (18 years and up) with special needs, and you are involved in caregiving in any fashion for your child, I think you will enjoy our blog. You may want a clarification of what it means to be a caregiver. Well, there are many ways in which to be a caregiver. In my case, my 21 year old son with autism, Blake, sort of lives at home. "Sort of" because he lives in his own home which is attached to my home. Like a mother-in-law cottage. He has 24 hour supervision, which isn't myself all the time,but I'm quite involved. I do a lot for him, but also have help. So I am a Snaccer. Now there are many other types of caregivers. I know people who's child lives in another setting, but they are still actively involved in managing their child's life. They are most certainly Snaccers. Then of course, many individuals still live directly in the family home.
What kind of SNACCER are you? Where does your child live? Tell us about your situation.
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